Sometimes I just want to kill myself haha. For being too emotional and too fragile and too sensitive. But I can’t help it. If that’s the type of person that I am, then it’s either you accept me or not. I have feelings too.. I just wish some people realized that. Everyone is tired of something, I understand. But I get tired too.. but my feelings don’t matter does it. There’s a lot of people in this world. I understand I’m not the only one. But I was kinda hoping that I was special enough to someone that I could actually be noticed and paid close attention to. Not to sound selfish or anything, but something like that would just be nice.. But because of my feelings, I push people away. And I don’t want to push people away. So because of that, I’m willing to sacrifice my feelings. Because they get in the way. So I’m giving this up just so other people can stay happy. That’s just the kind of person that I am. I hope you accept that.
“I used to think that when I got older, the world would make so much more sense. But you know what? The older I get, the more confusing it is to me. The more complicated it is. Harder. You’d think we’d be getting better at it. But there’s just more and more chaos. The pieces- they’re everywhere. And nobody knows what to do about it. I find myself grasping, Nick. You know that feeling? That feeling when you just want the right thing to fall into the right place, not only because it’s right, but because it would mean that such a thing is still possible? I want to believe that.”—Nick and Norah’s Infinite Playlist (via theavamovement)
This world is so sad that it makes me wanna die. I’m not gonna die but so many many many things hurt and I feel like no one deserves to suffer any type of hurt. Some people really just don’t care about anything or anyone. And if some do care, they just don’t wanna show it because their pride get in the way. It’s a sad world we live in. Who can you rely on but yourself?
If you ever had a friend who threatened to kill his/herself, don’t take it as a joke even if that person WAS joking around. You never know what goes on. You never know what people are feeling. You don’t know until you’ve gone through the same thing that person did. Most people just want to be cared for. It takes a second to show you care, so why not just show it? What’s so hard?